16 years have passed since I founded CCCP with my mates Christophe & Frédéric. Gosh. Our little toddler has grown into a full fledged teenager, full of energy (which he vampirizes directly from ours…) but still young and naive. Or maybe for companies we count in dog years? Hmm…
Focus Matt, you’re losing the purpose of this little introductory chat, which was meant to be short.
So yeah, 16 years… 16 years of struggle, of pain, of doubts… but also 16 years of laughters, of friendships, of beautiful projects and beautiful people met along the way.
After all this time, I only now understand what drove us all these years through the hardships. It’s the people. From the beginning, without it being said consciously, we wanted to created our little cozy space where we could meet nice people and work with them. We didn’t want to be the most successful company. We wanted to create the place where we would love coming to work every day for the next 20, 30 years or so.
Along the way, we may have lost ourselves. We wanted to be “like all the others” at some point. I personnally lost completely the will to come to work, I was feeling unaccepted in my own company. And that was a situation I entirely put myself in! I heard about the loneliness of CEOs, but that was not “just” that. I lost my way, I lost my focus.
That’s around that time that I wrote the concept of Dead In Bermuda. I was clearly depressed, and it MAY show a little in the game, I reckon >_< But it was the start of a new spark.